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yesterday i received a news, the person i used to loved died.  I don't know how to feel about this, i don't even know if i am sad or just refuse to feel this moment. I used to wonder why things happen, but this event somehow answers the question. No, i am not happy just because that someone is no longer here on earth, i guess i am just unburdened of heartaches and of how and why.  I just wish that he been happy during the last days of his life.  That all his dreams were fulfilled and that God gave him everything he asked for.  At this moment, while writing this, i know why i feel not lonely instead i feel light, because i am now free.  I am free from wondering how he is living his life, i am free from thinking of his happiness, i am free from worrying about him because he is now with his Creator, and he is being well taken care of.  
             Thank you God, for giving me back my freedom, I trust my life and everything i have to you... thank you for letting me "see" and "feel" how it was to be with him... thank you for all the prayers and wishes you have granted.. it was timed perfectly.  I will always asks you for things my heart desires and for my future but i will never question the time when you will grant all those things, for in your time everything will be perfect.  

              

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